What convinced me of Gods exsistance enough to search for God myself.

What convinced me was two things. First, when I was 14 and saw people (apostolic christians) who were selfless for real! Not just selfless to get attention, or some other kind of reward, like I normally would experience. I became a christan then, but was unsteady because nothing was integrated. I did not know what to do to get in contact with God. (Så jeg har erfart betydningen av å ha en åndelig praksis.)

The next thing was when i was 19 and saw the happiness some christians had after attending a meeting (also charismatic). It was a happiness very strong, and they said it was caused by the holy spirit. Then I thought I could not take the chance to live without the holy spirit if it could be exsisting for real, so I decided to search for it in case it was. And not long after I was blown away by it myself. Thank God!:)

 

The reason there is hate, fear and so on is lack of love or nearness to God. People, or at least me, are holding on to experiences of the lack of love from people. It is dragging us/me down because it is heavy stuff. We know with our minds that it is not true that we are not worth to be loved, and we should not identify ourselves with the strange behaviour we had and still have because the environment was unloving, because that can prevent us from seeking better ones. That behaviour was an image of the mirror we were looking into (our environment).

What I did on my search was to be part of an environment I felt were light and loving. Even though I did not feel worthy, was shameful and was insecure. There I felt accepted and safe enough to be more whole and then the reality could unfold. If one just look at oneself as a body, from others view, everything else is also seen on the surface, and nothing will have meaning. One have to remove the veils that hinder us to experience the depth of reality. You must move your attention, penetrate and have room for at the same time. Be interested IN. There is nothing to lose but the unvaluable and not-eternal things.

There is a difference in the meaning of the words proof and conviction. You ony need the last one. You can search an eternity for proof in this world and never find it, but God can convince you in a second if you want to believe in His exsistence. Then you can see proof everywhere.

What made me really believe in God when I was reading in the Bahai scriptures was that Bahaullah confirmed what Jesus had said. It was like reading the words of Jesus! I was so happy when i saw that! I believed in Jesus as a child, but was never as a grown up one that could believe deeply. The bible was too old to rely on for me completely.  

Behandling av psykiske problemer.

Jeg har en venninne som er på psykiatrisk avdeling. Hun har manisk-depressiv lidelse. Hun ble redd. Hun ble tvangsinnlagt. Hun blir aldri sint og er alltid rolig. Sier nesten ikke noe.

Hun får ikke lov til å motta besøk. De har fjernet sim-kortet på mobiltelefonen hennes. Hun får ikke bruke datamaskinen sin. Hun får kun snakke på telefonen 10 minutter 2 ganger daglig. Nå får hun ikke lov til å ringe ut, men kun motta samtaler. Er det dette som skal gjøre hennes frisk? Blir hun liksom mindre redd av at mennesker som liksom skal vise henne omsorg behandler henne som mindreverdig? Hvordan havner hun i belteseng når hun ikke viser sinne? Hun får ikke vite når hun slipper ut. I fengsel er straffen allerede satt; frihetsberøvelse. Det kan ikke bli verre. På psykiatrisk kan det såvisst bli verre. Der er du berøvet friheten i ukjent tid. Der har du ingen rettigheter. Du er i andres vold. Er det noe jeg hater er det måten psykisk sykdom behandles på i Norge. HATER!

De ansatte på avdelingene, hva gjør de? De tror kan fraskrive seg ansvar for sine handlinger fordi de følger ordre fra oven. "Snille" tjenere, hvem er i oven? Det er der du finner narsissister. Omsorgs-Norge er styrt av empati-løse galninger som tror det bare er å ta seg sammen. For kjærlighet kjenner de ikke til.http://www.forskning.no/artikler/2014/juni/395853

Vis, bevis, overbevis.

Hva av det som har manifestert seg i verden overbeviste deg om Guds eksistens? For meg var det at noen fremmede uselvisk ofrer seg for å bringe andre glede + den lykksalighet og ekstase noen føler etter et religiøst møte, altså lykken som ikke har ytre årsak. Å vise verden dette er en fin måte å tjene Gud på, synes jeg. For Gud vil vi skal vise at Han eksisterer.

Annerledes i drømmeland.

Jeg er alltid så annerledes i drømmeland. Easygoing uten en vegg mot andre, til og med fremmede, fordi jeg leser dem straks. Jeg er veldig åpen og kommer lett i dyp kontakt med andre der. Det er så mye mer trivelig der enn her, synes jeg. Også fordi jeg kan forflytte meg med tankens kraft, he he. Mon tro om flere opplever denne endringen? Jeg føler at jeg er mer meg enn den jeg er her. Det er den uredde varianten av meg som aldri tenker på muligheten for å bli dømt eller krenket.

Bill Withers, oh yeah!

http://youtu.be/IxjNauWYFfc

http://youtu.be/HBKcAc8VpIw

http://youtu.be/2btM0GyXXzU

Diktet om likegyldighet av Martin Niemøller

Først tok de kommunistene, men jeg brydde meg ikke, for jeg var ikke kommunist.
Deretter tok de fagforeningsfolkene, men jeg brydde meg ikke, for jeg var ikke fagforeningsmann.
Så tok de jødene, men jeg brydde meg ikke, for jeg var ikke jøde.
Til slutt tok de meg. Men da var det ingen igjen til å bry seg.
(Dikt av Martin Niemöller)

Nice said about sex.

Women, Please Invite Us Clearly And Unmistakably To Make Love With You.

Only when we are certain that your invitation is wholehearted and clear can we melt into devotional service to your pleasure. We need to be total, unbridled by doubt, to allow the strength of our male physicality to take you. We want to explode you into light and usher you to the door where you can dissolve into pure sex with the Big Spirit – in the field that is beyond us both, but until we are certain that Your invitation is total, we can’t surrender to giving you our gifts fully.
Your vulnerability is my vulnerability. Let’s melt deeper into it together and heal the past traumas with our love-making.
By: Jamie Catto
Source:http://jamiecatto.wordpress.com/2013/01/11/the-vulnerability-of-penetration/
All his blogs about sex: http://jamiecatto.wordpress.com/category/sex/