My goal have for very many years been to find the truth, find wisdom and tell the direct truth.
Some of my friends' goal on the other hand was to be kind.
When I compare myself with them I feel bad when I see how much kinder they are than I am.
It looks like the kindness shed forth a light that reveals my dark spots, which is my lack of kindness.
They don't get impatient, hot-headed, harsh and unpolite like me.
I recently asked one of them why and he said: I regard other peoples feelings.
I have cared more about telling the truth than regarding other peoples feelings and haven't cared about the sacrifices one have to make to get to the truth. Meaning I have found and told the truth no matter how upsetting it was, for me and others. But I see that it isn't fair to others to force the truth upon them nor forcing them to sacrifice a feeling of peace. I have been selfish.
I understand that if I have something important to tell I should regard the receivers well-being before I talk. That way I will avoid getting upset or use harsh words.
Before I talked to my friend I asked God if He can make me less impatient, but then the answer I got was: Try not to hurt anyone. For a while I thought it meant that it was ok to be impatient as long as I didn't hurt anyone while being upset, but thing is: It is very hard to have control of how I express myself while I am upset. So I understand now that my intention should be to avoid hurting others because this will prevent me from being upset when I feel impatient.
Some of my friends' goal on the other hand was to be kind.
When I compare myself with them I feel bad when I see how much kinder they are than I am.
It looks like the kindness shed forth a light that reveals my dark spots, which is my lack of kindness.
They don't get impatient, hot-headed, harsh and unpolite like me.
I recently asked one of them why and he said: I regard other peoples feelings.
I have cared more about telling the truth than regarding other peoples feelings and haven't cared about the sacrifices one have to make to get to the truth. Meaning I have found and told the truth no matter how upsetting it was, for me and others. But I see that it isn't fair to others to force the truth upon them nor forcing them to sacrifice a feeling of peace. I have been selfish.
I understand that if I have something important to tell I should regard the receivers well-being before I talk. That way I will avoid getting upset or use harsh words.
Before I talked to my friend I asked God if He can make me less impatient, but then the answer I got was: Try not to hurt anyone. For a while I thought it meant that it was ok to be impatient as long as I didn't hurt anyone while being upset, but thing is: It is very hard to have control of how I express myself while I am upset. So I understand now that my intention should be to avoid hurting others because this will prevent me from being upset when I feel impatient.
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