Gods forgiveness is for everyone.

““For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.” John‬ ‭3:16‬ ‭ESV‬‬

I don't think God even consider forgiving anyone. Forgiveness is His nature, so He forgives everyone and everything before the sin is even made. We are told to forgive the same sin again and again and be quick about it. God must be able to do even better than that.

God doesn't discriminate between us sinners. We shouldn't either. This quote is not about discriminating Christians from non-Christians, but humans from God. God has the power, we are the powerless. Only God can clear our consciousness.

We can only receive forgiveness if we trust that we can be forgiven. This quote confirms that we can. If Christians say it is only meant for Christians they have missed the point and distorted the meaning. No person is more superior than another in Gods eyes. Everyone deserves a second chance and a third, forth and so on.

A lot more can be said about this quote of course, because it is a very powerful sentence, but I just wanted to say this now because it annoys me when some Christians think God forgives them because they believe in Jesus (and those who are not calling themselves Christians will not be forgiven) and not simply because they trust they will be forgiven.

To perish means to die. Die spiritually. If we are burdoned with sin we feel disconnected to God our source of life, love, wisdom and happiness; We feel dead. To perish doesn't mean that some people will not have eternal life, literally! It means that if you are burdoned with sin your life are limited, you will not feel free, one with God and eternity. 

The stages of the soul by Abdu’l-Bahá

The stages of the soul by Abdu’l-Bahá

a. The commanding soul—the soul that commands to evil — is preoccupied with the trivialities of this world, and is in fatuated with evil and ephemeral desires.

b. The blaming soul — which becomes aware of the depths of its degradation and of its remoteness from its true goal. It awakes to a perception of its state, is filled with regret and blames itself for the depths of perversity and error to which it has sunk.

c. The inspired soul —as it rises from its lowly condition, the soul comes to understand those things that kept it abased and those thing which will lead to its elevation. It becomes averse to those things that perish and to incline towards those things that endure. It is termed the inspired soul for it is inspired as to that which on the one hand leads to depravation and on the other to righteousness.

d. The assured soul — this is the stage at which the soul is in remembrance of its Lord and sees the signs of God in the creation. As a result it is assured in its faith, its turmoil and unrest is calmed, it has quenched its thirst, soothed its torment; it has changed its darkness to light and unloaded its burdens.

e. The accepting soul — reaches a station of submission and contentment, leaving behind its searching and neediness. It entrusts its affairs to God and is content with whatever God may decree for it. This is a happiness that is not followed by sadness. There remains no will, no rest , no motion, no destiny nor any fate except in God.

f. The accepted soul — in this state all- encompassing blessings and mercy reach it. Insofar as it has  risen and left behind its passions and accepted the decree of its Lord, it becomes accepted in the sight of God, and in its state of nothingness, it is approved by its Creator.

g. The perfect soul — here it is characterized by divine perfections and comprised of godly attributes. It thus becomes the focal point of inspiration and the dawning-place for the Divine effulgences.

h. The soul of the Kingdom of God (Mal ak út)— here the soul confirms in its reality the profession of Divine Unity and establishes in its essence the sign of detachment. It attains to everlasting life and eternal living. It takes pleasure from delights the like of which no eye has seen nor any ear heard .

i. The soul of the Realm of Divine Command (Jab arút)— this is a stati on far ab ove the unde rs tand ing of the minds of men, for this stati on is created out of the elements of power, authority, sovereignty, omnipotence, and freedom and nothing that has limitations or pluralities has any resemblance to it. Here the soul becomes aware of the secrets of hidden and invisible realities. This is the ultimate goal in the world of creation .


From ‘Abdu’l-Bahá’s Commentary on the Quránic Verses Concerning the Overthrow of the Byzantines: The Stages of the Soul by Moojan Momen file:///C:/Users/Leah%20Wilhelmsen/Downloads/lights2_momen_byzantines%20Complete%20.pdf

Impatience, losing my temper and being selfish

My goal have for very many years been to find the truth, find wisdom and tell the direct truth.
Some of my friends' goal on the other hand was to be kind.

When I compare myself with them I feel bad when I see how much kinder they are than I am.
It looks like the kindness shed forth a light that reveals my dark spots, which is my lack of kindness.
They don't get impatient, hot-headed, harsh and unpolite like me.
I recently asked one of them why and he said: I regard other peoples feelings.

I have cared more about telling the truth than regarding other peoples feelings and haven't cared about the sacrifices one have to make to get to the truth. Meaning I have found and told the truth no matter how upsetting it was, for me and others. But I see that it isn't fair to others to force the truth upon them nor forcing them to sacrifice a feeling of peace. I have been selfish.

I understand that if I have something important to tell I should regard the receivers well-being before I talk. That way I will avoid getting upset or use harsh words.

Before I talked to my friend I asked God if He can make me less impatient, but then the answer I got was: Try not to hurt anyone. For a while I thought it meant that it was ok to be impatient as long as I didn't hurt anyone while being upset, but thing is: It is very hard to have control of how I express myself while I am upset. So I understand now that my intention should be to avoid hurting others because this will prevent me from being upset when I feel impatient.

Self-regard and debasement

​I was disappointed​, not excited or happy about life. 

It was me I was disappointed about

for not showing more kindness and love towards others.

What I had forgot, though, was that not only what one does to others 

has an impact on God, but also what one does to oneself.

It was when I remembered this I saw that I don't make myself happy.

If I treat myself well, because it effects God, I will be happy.

As happy it will be easy to treat others well. Also, by having self-regard 

I will be a role model showing we are all worthy of being treated with respect.

Nattens tanker

Når lysmengden fra himmelen øker, øker også motstanden til lyset, fordi lyset skyver mørket til side så det fortettes mer og mer.

og:

Why do I have a closed heart? I don't have to love the world, or dislike it. I only need to love God. Then there's nothing to fear and to love people becomes easy.

og tanker på dagen etterpå:

Det guddommelige lyset er her for alle. Vår oppgave er å bekjempe vår egen motstand mot det så vi kan bli mottakelige.

My outer journey surrounded by God

The first part of my spiritual life was an inner journey where God made my inner world positive and fair. He then put me into the dark night of the soul accompanied by the holy spirit/kundalini shakti by the staring wheel. This fearless spirit took me out of my body and also gave me other experiences that forced me to surrender to what happened. I could go anywhere I liked. I say I because this spirit was the divine part of me. A part that didn't respect the fact that the fearful lower part of me that didn't dare to lose control and the mask, said no out of fear to these experiences. The divine was in control. I chose to go to heaven. I know some people who can travel outside their bodies travel to different planets or places at the earth, but i wasn't interested in exploring the physical realm.

The fearful part of me who wanted to adjust to the people on earth wanted the journey to end as soon as possible and gain back control, but it was impossible to stop the force. I moved to the countryside to make the process go quicker. Partly because I wanted to be able to have a relationship with a very religious and spiritual guy I had met. A guy I thought wanted normal sex, not just the energy orgasms and full body orgasms I experienced because I avoided peak orgasms. (The irony was we never even kissed the 6 months we were together because he wanted to follow Gods will. )

When I had stabilized a fair bit I got married and got my son, so my life changed drastically. I had to ground myself to be a mother and express the love, peace, wisdom etc. that God had granted me during my inner journey. I didn't manage to avoid orgasms as much as I wanted to during the marriage. Partly because the man I married didn't want to practice tantra. ( He said he would before we got married, but changed his mind quickly once he had tried it.

When my son was 10 and was forced to live mostly at his fathers place I didnt know what to focus on. I asked God for advice and He told me to be spiritual again, like before I got my son to think about. But I didn't stop masturbating to copy the way I lived the time God was referring to. I didn't understand how important it was for my spiritual life to avoid peak orgasms at that point. Instead I took ayahuasca regularly for 1,5 years to open myself up completely for God so He could adjust me to heaven. I stopped when not much happened when I took it.

For many years, since I was finished with exploring my inner world, I wanted to find God in the outer world, but i have not succeded in doing so. Now I understand how it dan be done. I had misunderstood: It's not God I am suppose to find there. God will be with me in spirit as long as i don't commit sins like masturbation and casual sex. It is the divine in me as a wordly being and the divine in every created thing I am going to experience/ "find".

The embodyment of spirit

Now I will do what he told me to do 4 years ago: Stop masturbating, be the daughter of God again, but also continue to express the divine like I did when I had my son. Because I had finished digging up the divine deeds inside (by removing all that is not divine), my duty was to express them and because I was told to be close to God  as well, I would be both extroverted and introverted at the same time. I am going to find the divine in the outer world so I will view it as paradise and hopefully also make it a bit more like paradise for others, like i changed the inner world to become divine, with God close to me.

I am sure I will be able to find the divine in others when I can feel I am divine in the flesh (not just in meditation) and focus on treating others like divine beings, because people act according to how they are treated and viewed as. So what I feel is different now is that I embody my spirituality. When i pray to God or act divine I feel it in my personality and in my flesh as well. It has completely soaked through my whole being. There is no separation between me and my soul anymore, because my personality can be like my soul. Its an incredible feeling to be a divine person in flesh! I feel it strongly when i have a lot of sexual energy in me. It is because I am grounded I can feel whole and it is because i feel the sexual energy I feel the spirituality is soaking my body too, as if the sexual energy connects the body with the soul. ( Likewise emotions connects the soul to God.) The sexual energy can also be viewed as the female divine energy that meets the divine masculine energy called God. Its when these two meet powerful things happen.

Earlier I felt divided because I thought I had a personality connected to a body, but identified only with my soul and didnt like to have a body or I identified with my body and didn't feel my soul. God healed the anorexia ( that hates bodies ) so now I am able to "embrace"/integrate the body into my whole being. I am so happy to start the journey, because I know what to do now. I will change how I see the world and the world will change for real a little bit by my effort. I will go visit the continent I have been most afraid of, but that I am attracted to now; Africa. Where there is more churches than grocery shops some places. How hard can it be then to experience the divine on this earth?

Tablet of the wondrous Maiden

The hallowed Beauty shone resplendent from behind the veil. How wondrous a thing, how wondrous indeed! And, lo, the flame of rapture caused all souls to swoon away. How wondrous is this, how wondrous indeed! Rising up, they soared unto the blest pavilion ’neath the throne of heaven’s canopy. How wondrous a mystery, how wondrous indeed! Say: The Maiden of Eternity unveiled Her face—may her wondrous beauty be exalted indeed! — Shedding forth from earth to heaven its resplendent rays. How wondrous a light, how wondrous indeed! A lightning glance She cast, as piercing as a shooting star—how wondrous Her glance, how wondrous indeed!— A glance consuming every name and every title in its flames. How wondrous a feat, how wondrous indeed! To the dwellers of the realm of dust She turned Her gaze. How wondrous Her gaze, how wondrous indeed! And then did all creation shake and pass away. How astounding a death, how astounding indeed! She then let fall a raven lock, an ornament of spirit in the darkest night—how wondrous a hue, how wondrous indeed!— From which the fragrant breezes of the spirit were perceived. How wondrous a scent, how wondrous indeed! In Her right hand She bore the ruby wine and in Her left a portion of the finest fare. How wondrous a grace, how wondrous indeed! With hands encrimsoned with Her ardent lovers’ blood—how wondrous is this, how wondrous indeed!— In cups and chalices She passed round the wine of life. How wondrous a draught, how wondrous indeed! With harp and lute She sang in praise of Her Beloved. How wondrous a song, how wondrous indeed! Whereat the hearts were melted in consuming flames. How wondrous a love, how wondrous indeed! Of Her sustaining beauty She bestowed a boundless share—how wondrous a share, how wondrous indeed!— Then brought Her sword of charm upon Her lovers’ necks. How wondrous a blow, how wondrous indeed! Her pearl-like teeth did flash, no sooner had She smiled. How wondrous a pearl, how wondrous indeed! Whereat the hearts of them that know cried out and wept. How wondrous a piety, how wondrous indeed! But they that doubt and boast of self denied Her truth. How astounding a denial, how astounding indeed! And, hearing this, in sorrow, She repaired to Her abode. How astounding Her grief, how astounding indeed! She returned from whence She came: How lofty were the steps She traced! How astounding a decree, how astounding indeed! She cried a cry of anguish, as to reduce all things to naught. How astounding Her woe, how astounding indeed! And from Her lips there streamed these words of warning and rebuke—how astounding a stream, how astounding indeed!— “Why do ye gainsay Me, O people of the Book?” How astounding is this, how astounding indeed! “Claim ye to be the guided and the loved ones of the Lord?” By God! How astounding a lie, how astounding indeed! “O my friends,” She said, “We shall not come again,”—how wondrous a return, how wondrous indeed!— “But will conceal God’s secrets in His Scriptures and His Books,” as bidden by One mighty and bounteous indeed! “Nor shall ye find Me till the Promised One appear on Judgement Day.” By My life! How astounding an abasement, how astounding indeed!