Drøm natt til 06 des. 2017

Jeg hadde kjørt bilen til mamma for å møte den minst pratsomme av de veganske brødrene jeg følger på youtube. Jeg vet ikke om det var et spisested eller hva det var, men vi satt på hver vår side av en lang benk langs en langvegg i et langt smalt rom hvor inngangsdøra var synlig bak ryggen hans. Han begynte å stille meg spørsmål og han var mye mer hyper enn jeg var vant til å se han være på youtube. Jeg ble veldig trøtt av han. Vi hadde ikke god kjemi. Snart klarte jeg ikke å holde øynene oppe. Jeg tror kanskje jeg sovna for da jeg åpnet øynene var han borte og jeg kunne ikke finne den lille hvite posen med det svarte kameraet og bilnøklene til mamma i. Jeg spurte en dame som også var der om hun hadde sett den,og jeg kom også i snakk med en yngre dame som jeg likte veldig godt. Vi prate en del, men jeg husker ikke om hva.

Jeg så det var to grønne "dører" midt på veggen av treplanker det sev lys mellom sprekkene på. Slike som finnes foran vinduene på noen gamle hus og som lukkes når huset ikke er i bruk. Jeg åpna de i håp om å finne betjening bak de, og ganske riktig var det både en gammel dame til venstre og en gammel mann til høyre i det smale rommet innenfor. Jeg spurte damen om hun hadde funnet kameraet mitt. Hun stirret på meg, men svarte ikke, så jeg spurte igjen. Hun bare mumlet noen rare lyder. Hun så smågal ut. Jeg spurte igjen og enda en gang, men hun bare stirret og lagde noen rare lyder. Jeg så på mannen, men jeg fikk ikke noe svar av han heller.

Hvordan løsne blokkeringer

For å løse opp blokkeringer trenger man energi til å løsne de og en overgivende holdning for å ta den blokkerte energi inn over seg. Energi kan du få fra en healer, ved å spare på energi ved å unngå topporgasme, stress og overarbeid og med tai chi, yoga etc. Den overgivende holdningen er den feminine, løsrevne, mottakelige holdning der man ikke tenker, men har tillit til at det som kommer over en er ufarlig, selv om det kanskje er smertefullt. For å gråte med total overgivelse trengte jeg først å ha tillit til at det var en kjærlig kraft omkring meg som tok meg i mot når hele jeg overgav meg til energien/følelsene. Å få energi er lett, det er den mottakelige holdningen til det ukjente som er vanskelig. Selv om energien kanskje er skummel og løsner noe vondt må man vise den samme holdning som ved en deilig fullkroppsorgasme.

Vi har lært at vi skal underkaste oss Gud, bli små under en stor, streng Gud som kan knuse oss om Han vil. Jeg synes underkastelse blir et feil ord, fordi Gud er inni oss og fordi Gud er kjærlig og har den ypperste tilpasningsdyktighet. Overgivelse, eller mer presis: undergivelse til det vi kommer i kontakt med inni oss, er mer oppbyggende og frigjørende. Vi har lært vi skal frykte Gud, men hvordan elske Gud da? Ærefrykt er et mer passende ord. De kristne har vært redd underbevisstheten. De tror helvete er "der nede", men det er ikke farlig å falle eller synke ned i dypet av seg selv.

Integritet

Integritet : å ha blitt bevisst og etterpå integrert de dypere/høyere delene av seg. Men ikke bare de delene, selv om de er viktigst. Man kan også for eksempel ha reflektert over et tema for å finne sin stilling til det. Når man så har funnet den har man bygget mer fundament til å bli fast i sin tro. Man har integrert noe.

Jeg tror integritet henger sammen med bevisstgjørelse. Man integrerer/tar opp i seg/ fordøyer det man har gjort seg bevisst. Når man så i tillegg har funnet ut hvordan å leve etter disse prinsippene kan man vise at man har integritet. Man kan ha integritet uten at det kan vises. Først integreres noe, deretter finner man ut hvordan leve det ut.

Grunnleggende ondskap finnes ikke

Jeg tror ikke at de hensynsløse er grunnleggende onde for i grunnen av alle finnes det guddommelige. Jeg lurer på om de uten empati har mindre kontakt med sin samvittighet. Jeg ble plaget av en fyr i årevis jeg opplevde som ond. Jeg trodde han bevisst forsøkte å bryte meg ned, men da jeg viste han det han ikke viste meg; empati, ved å gå inn i hans psyke, forsto jeg at han var svært lite bevisst på konsekvensene av det han gjorde og jeg ble lettet ved tanken på at han ikke var ond, han var bare dum. Har man ikke empati har man heller ikke innsikt, hverken i seg selv eller andre. Etter det har jeg ikke noen tro på ondskap. Det vi oppfatter som ondskap er et uttrykk for en mangel på godhet, visdom etc. Vi har alle det guddommelige i oss, men hvor mye kontakt vi har med de forskjellige dyder varierer.

So-called weakness is not a weakness

Nothing is bad in itself. For example, if I don't do yoga with other people or with others watching I don't do yoga much or at all. Then I can be called competative ( immature according to Eric Fromm) and an exhibitionist (vain), but how can these two be weaknesses when they actually make me improve my effort? They are actually qualities, used in the right way. If people get annoyed because I show off my flexibility at a yoga class they are competative too, as well as envious. And it's nothing wrong with that as long as they don't express hateful comments or actions, because envy an competition can make them improve themselves.

Nobody is either a coward or brave. Everybody has every quality within them. Everybody has fear too, but everybody can act despite it.

In the Bahai faith we are taught that evil is a lack of goodness. Yes, that is right, appearantly, but inside every person who made an evil act there is goodness. So it is not a lack inside the person, it is a lack in a situation. Unwillingness to answer a call for help.

So, is it unwillingness/uncaring that is the lack of goodness, then? No, one person are not able to help everywhere help is needed. One have to choose where ones qualities are best suited and what needs are most urgent and important. Besides, people are always willing to do something. That is how life is. Even when we go to sleep we answer a need the body has. We care all the time we use our attention. Attention is light. Sometimes the use of light is superficial, sometimes analytical, sometimes deep or embracing. It depends on what the persons mindset is or what he think suits the situation best.

Nothing and noone is evil in itself, but things and people can be abused and misused.

What about sloth? That can't be of any good. Yes. Why do something if there is no motivation for doing it? If it doesn't bear fruit?  People can call you lazy because you say no to them, but that is just how it looks like superficially. It can be many reasons for saying no. Sloth is a lack of love, but again: you can't love everything, and must choose.

Vanity then? That is what collects cardinal sins like pride (lack of knowledge and humility , wrath and envy. I think vanity/pride is a substitute for love. It make the person feel valuable when there is no love that can do it. Is that bad then? When perhaps it can prevent depression and suicide? No, in it self pride is a resource. It is not good to shame someone, but then I would criticise the action and motivation for that only. Hubris that is to cause shame on others is the worst act of pride. Pride is self love. No love can be bad. 

I really don't believe God created evil. We are influenced by the animal nature and we have fear. Nothing wrong with fear and animals, but a call for love will not be answered by us when we are fearful and proud, as well as unable to put our little self aside. The best distraction when having panick attacks is when someone demands your attention.

Jesus says we should put others first. We all have pride and fear, as well as the other cardinal sins. We must all chose love. Chose to put others needs before our own. God has helped us: When we get children we are forced to put the childs needs before our own. That way we can experience the freedom that comes from forgetting ourselves, the little self, and become a bigger person. We can also experience the satisfaction we get from taking care of others needs and the happiness it may result in and that we can partake in.

Nothing is bad, but something may be better.

 Interesting article about the the sins: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Seven_deadly_sins#Sloth

Arvesynd

Barn er født uten synd. Den synd man arver kommer av omgivelser som gir uttrykk for manglende dyder som barnet tar etter. Destruktiv adferd er et uttrykk for en motstand mot umøtte behov. Det er en oppgitt tilstand selv om den tilsynelatende er aggressiv og kjempende. At det er en oppgitt tilstand betyr at det er ikke vår sanne natur å være destruktiv. Vi kan falle tilbake i handlingsmåter som tilhører det lavere i oss fordi vi har alt i oss, men vi er skapt for å leve ut vår guddommelighet. Vi er født med en høyere og lavere natur og velger selv hva vil vil leve ut, den grad vi kan velge våre omgivelser og idealer, samt overkomme ubevisste reaksjonsmønstre, men uansett hvor mye et menneske lever ut fra sin lave natur er det fortsatt et guddommelig vesen.

Administrer

Å døpe barn fordi man vil rense de fra en medfødt synd er et hån mot Gud som skapte de i sitt bilde. Jeg velger å tenke at dåp gir de små en velsignelse. Presten velsigner vannet. Et tegn på respekt for de små. Jeg vil ikke tenke at mennesker legger noe mer i det enn det. På den andre siden tror jeg at et barn, et menneske, har slekten i seg: Alle inntrykkene og egenskapene til forgjengerne, og deler av dette kan komme opp i bevisstheten og ha en påvirkningskraft. En dåp er ikke mektig nok til å fjerne dette og det er ikke Guds hensikt å fjerne det heller siden Gud skapte oss slik. Lave tendenser kan vi la være. Det er ikke noe vi skal utslette, men heve oss over når vi tar våre valg. Vi trenger ikke følge vår slekts oppførsel, men forsøke å fylle de mangler de hadde og dermed ta bedre valg.

Waldemar Kozak

anders røkkum

Hvorfor disse utfordringer?

En kritisk fyr stilte spørsmålstegn ved min oppførsel. Jeg opplevde at han hadde en kritisk holdning og han gav seg ikke, stilte meg til veggs. Jeg tok til meg hans syn på meg og lurte på om det var sant. Jeg var redd det var det, at jeg hadde et egoistisk motiv til grunn slik han trodde. Det oppskaket meg og hans mistillit såret meg. Da jeg etter selvgranskningen slo meg til ro med at mitt motiv ikke var egositisk sa jeg opprørt til Gud: Hvorfor plager du meg med slike kritiske spørsmål (via denne fyren) når jeg faktisk ikke hadde en kritikkverdig oppførsel og motiv? Svaret var: fordi du selv ikke var helt sikker.

Jeg har opplevd lignende mange ganger før, fra samme mann. Mannen som prøver meg, utfordrer meg. Gud vil gjøre meg trygg på meg selv, tydeligvis. At jeg skal stå støtt så jeg kan være psykisk sterk. Takk Gud for prøvelsene. 

Maskulint kontra feminint, eller hva med dyder?

Jeg synes det blir vanskelig å snakke om hva som er maskuline og feminine kvaliteter, og når man stiller de maskuline sammen med det å være mann blir det enda verre. Er det å være sterk noe bare menn er, liksom? Selfølgelig ikke. Kan ikke styrke like gjerne være en feminin kvalitet? Kan vi ikke heller snakke om dyder? De gjelder begge kjønn og som viser modenhet når de er utviklet. Både menn og kvinner trenger å utvikle mot og styrke, og alle de andre dydene.

Om man skal snakke om feminine og maskuline egenskaper må man først være enige om hva som er maskulint og hva som er feminint og ikke blande de med kjønn. Maskulinitet har ikke noe med overgrep å gjøre. Heller det at det mangler modenhet eller kvaliteter overhodet.

Når man stiller kvaliteter opp mot hverandre er det lett å tenke den ene er bra, den andre dårlig: aktiv er bra, passiv er dårlig. Gi er bra, motta ikke like bra. Det stemmer selfølgelig ikke. Alt på sin plass. Derfor mener jeg at det ved snakk om overgrep eller hvilken som helst annen urett ikke handler om maskulin eller feminin kvalitet, men mangel på dem. Mangel på empati først og fremst, når det gjelder overgrep. Empati er noe visse mennesker ikke utvikler. De står fattige i møte med verden uten kontakt med hjerte og uten selvinnsikt. De blir røvere i verden.

Cool pictures

Å være seg selv

Hva betyr uttrykket " å være seg selv" og være autentisk? Er det egentlig mulig å være annet? Er man ikke seg selv når man er flink pike og gjør som mamma sier? Når man tilpasser seg mennesker og lever ut deler av seg selv? Eller er man seg selv mer når man trosser andres ønsker? Kan man egentlig være seg selv til fulle hvert øyeblikk? Eller er det noe annet å være seg selv enn å være seg selv til fulle? 

Kan man være det man uttrykker i det hele tatt?

Er jeg meg selv når jeg er hensynsløs og bare gjør hva jeg selv føler for eller er jeg meg selv når jeg er uselvisk og tilpasser meg andres behov?

Er jeg ikke enten alt eller ingenting? Alt siden alt kommer fra mitt indre og er noe jeg velger å ta i bruk, eller ingenting fordi jeg ikke kan være det jeg uttrykker i verden og siden alt jeg lever ut er fått av Gud eller er inntrykk fra mennesker?

Hvilket selv snakker vi om når vi snakker om noe autentisk? Er det det høyere selvet det er snakk om? Det som er spontant kjærlig og egoløst?

Om valgene våre er i tråd med ens kall eller om de er i tråd med andres forventninger sier noe om autensitet, synes jeg. Jeg synes det er veldig viktig å lytte til den indre stemmen for å få rett holdning og velge rett. Jeg mener alle ikke kan annet enn å etterape andre. Barn tar etter de næres uttrykk. Det er en del av sosialiseringen og en del av det å få en personlighet på. Når jeg ble større enn et barn husker jeg at jeg tok etter visse ansiktsuttrykk jeg la merke til. Jeg tipper det skjer presis det samme når man er barn. Man lærer å være i verden. Man er selektiv, og det faktum at vi velger noe fremfor noe annet sier noe om at det er rimelig autentisk i betydningen unikt likevel.

I følge enneagrammet er firerens gave til verden deres autensitet. Fireren regnes som den spesielle, kunstneren. Som ung velger de å gjøres seg til for å fremtre som orginale, fordi de vil vise at de føler seg spesielle og utafor mengden, fremfor å velge å bli opprinnelige og bli en del av mengden uten å miste sin unikhet. Jeg lurer på hva som gjør fireren autentisk. Er det at de følger sin intuisjon? Er det at de er uhemmede? Ærlige? Hva pokker er ærlighet? New agere sier: velg kjærlighet, ikke frykt. Om det å bestandig være tro til sin guddommelige natur er å være autentisk kan inget menneske klare dette. Det er det kun gudsmanifetasjoner som kan. Så hva betyr det å være autentisk?

Friends and lovers only.

When men say they want you as a lover and a friend, but not as a girlfriend, why is that?
After a while when these men have become my friend I have understood why they "rejected" me. They rejected themselves! Yes, they did not think they were good enough for me, but did not want to admit it. Who wants to feel like a failure with a girl with high expectations? Better then to say friends and lovers only. 

Energiorgasme- tungetale-personlig mantra

Jeg er overmåte glad for en ny oppdagelse jeg har gjort meg. Etter flere dager uten topporgasme fikk jeg energiorgasme helt spontant. På en måte som ikke endte i kjempekåt kropp slik jeg har beskrevet skjedde tidligere, men som simpelthen fikk energien oppover. Da jeg hadde energiorgasmen talte jeg i tunger de ordene jeg pleier å si (men ikke vet betydningen av) og energien gikk opp og ryggen bøyde seg bakover i en bue. Jeg tenkte med meg selv etterpå at om jeg forsøker å bruke ordene jeg pleier å si ved tungetale når jeg har kontakt med kundalini ( som ved g-punkt orgasme, cervix orgasme og tydeligvis også energiorgasme) bevisst, kanskje jeg får kontakt med kundalini/seksualenergien og får dratt energien oppover ved behov. Ha! Det funka faktisk! Igjen og igjen har jeg testet det ut. Mitt personlige mantra for å trekke energien opp. Jeg er velsigna! Jeg er dog trist for at jeg ikke kan gi dette rådet videre (siden ikke alle taler i tunger). Men det er håp om å finne sin måte å trekke den opp og sin måte å få kontakt med denne energien som ligger litt dypt i kroppen. 2-3 dager før det skjedde ba jeg nemlig til Gud om å hjelpe meg med mitt seksualenergiproblem (hva jeg skal gjøre med et overskudd). Mitt mantra for de som vil teste mitt mantra er kaman ante-pi. (A nr 2 i ord nr 1 uttales litt lengre) Si det mens du er henført etter at du har tatt kontakt med og kjenner på seksualenergien. Ikke den som har satt seg fast i kroppen, men den som er løs. For å heve den må ens sinn være fritt for begjær og tanker om sex. Man må se energien som kun energi. Måtte alle som ønsker det erfare og forstå mekanismene omkring energiorgasme. I den forbindelse vil jeg også anbefale "the new tantra". De har kunnskap om dette og hvor lenge har jeg ikke lett etter slik lære! Jeg har det bedre som singel pga energiorgasmene. For de som ikke vet det: Energiorgasmer tapper ikke for energi slik topporgasmer gjør.

Jeg har forresten fått se at kundalinienergien som normalt assosieres med Shakti tilsvarer den kristne Maria. Selv om det assosieres med Kali også, en destruktiv Gud, er energien kjærlighet. Det er derfor jeg hver gang jeg har kontakt med den roper (ikke nødvendigvis høyt) lengtende Kaman Ante-pi.

Det er ikke mer enn en smule svakhet som skal til om man er umotivert. Når jeg fant ut hvordan få energiorgasmer og dermed slippe ut av topporgasmefristelsen var det motivasjon nok. Og det er meningen at vi skal klarer å styre dette (fra et spirituelt perspektiv). Dessverre er ikke vi i vesten de som mediterer mest, har det reneste sinnet, har mest kontakt kroppens energier, følelser og det hellige/intuisjonen, så det å finne et alternativ er vanskelig. Skal vi ha energiorgasmer må vi fokusere på energi fremfor fysikk. Vi må elske det mer subtile.

Sitater av Bahaullah

I forbindelse med markeringen av at Bahaullahs ble født for 200 år siden har jeg valgt ut noen sitater av han jeg vil dele:

​La ditt perspektiv omfatte verden fremfor å være begrenset til ditt eget selv.​

Vær generøs i velstand og takknemlig i motgang. 

Vær rettferdig i din dom og forbeholdsom i din tale.

Vær en lampe for de som vandrer i mørket

og et hjem for den fremmede.

Vær den blindes øyne og et ledende lys for føttene til den som trår feil. Vær et livspust til menneskeheten, en duggdråpe til menneskehjertets muld og en frukt på ydmykhetens tre.

En vennlig tunge er en magnet for menneskenes hjerter. Det er åndens føde, det ikler ordene mening og den er kilden til visdommens og forståelsens lys.

Den høyeste plikt som påhviler enhver av dere er å utvelge for seg selv det som ingen kan frata eller kreve av han. En slik ting - og hertil er den Allmektige mitt vitne- er Guds kjærlighet.

Menneskets verdi ligger i tjeneste og dyder, ikke i overdådig rikdom og velstand.

Den søkende må til enhver tid gi Gud all sin tillit, må løsrive seg fra jordens folk, må fri seg fra verdens støv, og klynge seg til Ham Som er Herrenes Herre. Han må aldri søke å opphøye seg selv over noen, må vaske bort fra sitt hjertes tavle ethvert spor av stolthet og forfengelighet, må holde fast ved tålmodighet og undergivenhet, bevare taushet og avholde seg fra unødig tale. 

O MENNESKEBARN!

Den ulykke Jeg sender er Mitt forsyn; i det ytre er den ild og gjengjeldelse, men i det indre er den lys og barmhjertighet. Skynd deg hen til den, så du kan bli et evig lys og en udødelig ånd. Dette er Min befaling til deg. Så rett deg etter den!

Orgasm and mood

I have noticed that the times I have clitoral orgasm with focus on the clitoris my mood drops, but if I have something inside my vagina and have clitoral orgams then, but a focus on the sexual tension in the vagina that are build up because of the clitoral stimulation, then my mood don't drop. Masturbation doesn't have to feel bad afterwards.

Quotes by Jonathan Swift

“Every man desires to live long, but no man wishes to be old.” 

“We have just enough religion to make us hate, but not enough to make us love one another.” 

“You should never be ashamed to admit you have been wrong. It only proves you are wiser today than yesterday” 

“Laws are like cobwebs, which may catch small flies, but let wasps and hornets break through.” 
― Jonathan Swift

Lyset i menneskene

Lyset mennesket utstråler
skinner på visse deler av deg
som så utfolder seg.

Om du med et menneske
blir grov og virker umoden
skyldes det dennes indre tilstand.

Om du vil utvikle deg
så lyset i deg skinner klarere
finn mennesker mer modne enn deg.

For hva mennesker elsker er forskjellig.
De retter sitt lys deretter.

Excerpts from the book Sex perfection by Rudolph von Urban. A must -read.

Here is the link if you want to read it: https://synergyexplorers.org/wp-content/uploads/2019/08/SexPerfectionVonUrban.pdf

The importance of similar wave length, wave frequency and wave amplitude in the body rays of two persons is one of the main reasons for sympathy and attractions. The pleasant feeling which comes from holding hands indicates that these two persons are attuned to each other.

An emotional immature man will only increase his wife's frigidity.
No one can attain the goal of sexual perfection unless he possesses or aquires certain qualities of character. Chief among these are unselfishness, honesty, reliability, emotional maturity witch means the development from taking to giving.

In the life of a child, masturbation, playing with genitals, is an important factor in developing sexuality, for masturbation helps the child to transfer his sensations from the primary, lust-regions of the mouth and anus, normal to the baby, to the sex organs where they eventually will be needed.

Pampering and over-indulgence can also restrict sexual development. As Oswald Schwarz says: A man who's mother has kept him too long to her self never, or only with the greatest difficulty, finds his way to other women. An overly strong attachment to the parents -between the boy and his mother, and between the girl and her father (Oedipus complex) usually keeps the children from marrying when they mature.

The unconscious in the young man drives him in search of the unattainable mother ideal continual changes of sweet-hearts. Such a man is predestined to unfaithfulness. And if he marries, impotence is often the result. In his wife he unconsciously sees his mother, to whom he must not have incest-wishes, and therefore he is inhibited by an unconscious feeling of guilt. The woman he loves he cannot possess and the woman he possesses he cannot love. Such conflict of soul can drive a man back to childish sex activity, some kind of perversion.

A third factor damaging to the child's sexual evolution is beating. This appeared in a young woman whose marriage was very unhappy because, unconsciously she longed to get from her husband the same beatings she had received as a child from her governess. Because of her masochistic fixation she had nor matured efficiently to react to any other sexual stimulus. She therefore remained sexual frigid. (A masochist is a person who is a sadist against himself).

The child is afraid of the beatings; they thwart the development of his self-esteem; nevertheless they produce feelings of pleasure which remain in his unconscious. A child accustomed to being beaten will finally behave in such a way as to provoke beatings. It is the unconscious craving for relaxation of bodily tension. One form of relaxation can be produced by beating. Many couples who have fist fights with each other are often afterwards relaxed and happy.

Education through threats also gives poor results. His character is endangered; malice and low cunning are aroused, for a child yields to force most reluctantly.

She becomes disturbed, helpless, a true reflection of her home athmosphere.

Unloving parents prevent the child from liberating himself from narcissism, from his love to himself.

Again, I repeat parents make an irreparable mistake when they fail to guide their children in their sex cravings. Without such guidance children become the victims of neurosis, frivolity or masturbation. Unguided girls are so overwhelmed by sexual energy that, in selecting a marriage partner they make blind choices, disregarding the mental and physical fitness of their partner. What they thought was love they later discover to be mere sensuousness or a craving for adventure.

Woman's entire nature consists of sexuality, in the larger sense.

The means towards the improvement of modern marriages: Sex education of the right kind, early marriage and a better, a more cultivated home life.

To a boy about masturbation: If a jug has too much milk in it, it has to overflow. You are at a time in your life in which an abundance of such little germ cells is produced in your testicles. You do not need to force them out, they will discharge them-selves during the night while you are sleeping. And if you force them out too often, by what we call masturbation, you give these celles which build these germ cells no rest or leisure. You drive them to ceaseless work and so exhaust them. A boy can torture himself with too frequent masturbation. Every handling of the sex organ drives out, from every cell of the body, radiation which, if they cannot flow out from the body, only serve to tense it more and more. This tension produces fear. You feel if as you were in a prison. You become terrified, not knowing what happened to you. Masturbation relaxes only the sex organs, while it tenses him more in his whole body.

The sex hormones stimulates the production of sperm cells in the testicles. The tension in these organs, induced by the increase in the number of the sperm cells, is a further source of the desire in boys to get rid of this local pressure through the discharge of their semen. Sex hormones can also be produced prematurely. This may happen, for instance, from too vivid sensations, startling impressions and great excitement, such as dramatic scenes between parents or early sexual experience.

To get rid of the tension in the whole body, a child is driven, more or less unconsciously, to seek bodily contact with adults, mostly with one of the parents. The love of such a child is based on the need for bodily relaxation. An infant starts to cry and becomes restless untill the mother fondles him, where upon he immediately calms down. A little devil of a child will become obident and happy if the mother takes him to bed with her, or even strokes his hair and body softly, thus relieving him of tension.

Nevertheless, the local tension in the sexual region remains and are abated in one of two ways: Either self-induced friction of the child, or - according to the customs of certain primitive people -old women quietly lay their hands on the testicles of young boys and old men on the vulvas of little girls, holding them thus for some time.

Every irritation of the sex organ, whether direct or indirect, increases the tension in the body. Children can not diminish their bodily tension by masturbation, because the palms of their hands and their sex organs do not differ in the quality of their radiation.

Among the Melanesian Islanders a girl who has not learned to abandon her immature sensations in the clitoris in favor of the awakening, mature feeling in the vagina, would lose all hope of marrying, as she would be considered inferior.

The damage done by masturbation does not arise from the effect of such action on the sex organs of the child, but from fears implanted in him of its injurious consequenses. There are three objections to masturbation: Too much masturbation has a weakening effect, sometimes even an exhausting one. Secondly: it increase bodily tension. Thirdly: As long as a person masturbates his sex life remains egocentric, and he remains immature.

Just as a child has to learn to control his bodily functions during the first three years of his life, so, during puberty, must he try to control increasing pressure in the awakening sex organs. If they learn to control their sex impulses now they will have laid the groundwork for the mastery of the problem of self-control in all its phases throughout their life.

Experiments with a young couple in love:

During the course of these experiments, it was ascertained that if the couple did not lie naked for half an hour or longer, in close physical contact, kissing and caressing, but, instead starting intercourse immediately, the strange radiation did not radiate from the body of the girl; nor did sparks fly between the two lovers after when they stood near each other afterwards, even though the sex union lasted less than 27 minutes, which we had come to think was necessary to eliminate these phenomena.

Every intercourse lasting less than 27 minutes induced an urgent desire, in both, for a repetition of the sex act. But if this desire was fulfilled by another too-brief act, both became nervous and irritated. The tension in their bodies became stronger with each intercourse of brief duration. On the other hand, intercourse lasting half an hour or more was followed by an entire relaxation from nervous tension; and the desire to repeat the sex act did not renew itself for five or six days, sometimes not for a week, yet the couple's feeling of love towards each other increased and they were extremely happy.

Their feelings of relaxation and happiness set in, even after a short intercourse, if the husband did not withdraw his penis from the vagina after his ejaculation, but instead, remained there for half an hour, even in an unerected state, giving his full and undisturbed attention to the contact.

They found that a sex union of half an hour's duration induced deep satisfaction for both for five days; one lasting an hour satisfied them for a week; an intercourse lasting two hours brought contentment for two weeks. This same lasting relaxation was also produced by prolonged bodily contact, without sex relaton.

Very instructive is the sex life of young girls among some South Sea Islanders. At the time of puberty she leaves her home to another hut, where she sleeps with four boys of her choice, six months with each boy. After these two years she marries the boy who has given her the greatest relaxation. These marriages lasts a lifetime without infidelity. They usually have intercourse not oftener than every five day. On other nights they sleep together, body to body without contact between the sex organs. Preparation for sex union takes at least half an hour. They embrace, kiss and bite each other, untill both are electrified. But never does a man touch the clitoris of his mate. (A matured woman should have entirely given up the sensations of the clitoris, which are characteristic of a child. After puberty these sensations are normally consentrated in the vagina.) When the sex act begins they lie motionless for at least half an hour, sometimeslonger,before they start any movements. After the climax they continue to lie together for a long time.

Their first rule is total relaxation and freedom from pressure or strain. The man does not lie over his mate and deprive her the power of movement, also to avoid stimulation of the clitoris. After the preparation when full sex union is reached no no more tender caresses is allowed. All the attention, all the electric streams have to flow fully and undisturbed to the sex organs.

On all the other nights, without sex union, they lie close together, naked body to naked body, and find themselves deeply relaxed in the morning. On these nights they do not caress or kiss each other, as that is a prelude to sexual intercourse.

Sometimes they lie with their heads at opposite ends of the sleeping mat, the two open pairs of legs fitted together like pinchers, in such a way that the sex organs come into the closest contact without penetration of the vagina. In this position they sleep together when no sexual intercourse is intended.

In karezza the only thing renounced is the ejaculation of the man. Physical union is complete, prolonged and motionless. In half an hour a sort of superlative delight sets in. It is nature rewarding one a thousandfold for supreme self control. It lasts for hours. Then the two falls asleep in a refreshing dreamless sleep. After such complete relaxation it takes time to recharge the bodies. Therefore karezza can only be practiced successfully once in one to three weeks.

The bio-electricity discharged from the cells of two bodies during the prolonged love-making and stored up in the skin, has flowed to their sex organs where the two kinds of bio-electricity, of different potentials, meet and neutralize each other. As they are neutralized the electrical tension in the two bodies cease and full relaxation sets in.

A persons happiness depends on coming in contact with an individual whose electrical radiations complement his own.; That the tension of a negatively charged man can find its outlet only through contact with an positively charged woman- one to whose wave length his wave length is attuned. In the exchange of radiation between two lovers lies a satifaction more delightful and profound than in the sex act itself.

The measurable electricity in the body reaches its greatest intensity in the genitals, but that does not mean that the amount of electricity from innumerable small sources cannot exceed that from one single stream, however strong. The author believes that these small streams can can flow directly to each other and achieve equalization by mere bodily contact. without sexual union. This exchange induces a sense of delight that endures for days rather than for two or three hours.

The more a person can relax another from the tension induced in him by the electrical streams the more that person is desired by the other and more passionate is their mutual love.

A couple had an ecstatic experience of karezza, but after 7 hours they felt suffocated. They took a shower and could continue.

If a couple's love for each other is not well founded the karezza method will not work. To learn to change from the customary sensations of ejaculation and orgasm, both of which have to entirely be prevented, to the sensations accompanying the union of the body's electrical streams, is a task suitable only for very strong and determined characters. A sexual relationship entirely devoted to karezza is unsuited to the avarage healthy man and woman. Our task here on earth is to create. The tension produced by the electrical power within us is the driving force which makes creation possible. The sexual happiness possible through karezza is the strongest proof yet to available that orgasm is not essential for sexual happiness,that the exchange of bio-electricity is more essential and can be combined with orgasm.

The reason the vagina must be moist is also because water is a good conductor of electricity.

If a woman will abandon the half satifaction of clitoris orgasm she can eventually learn the deep, mature satifaction coming from the orgasm brought about by stimulation of the vagina and the tip of the uterus. Granted, such women will go through a sexual dead period, while losing their accustomed sensation, and before gaining the right one, but a few weeks of consentration, patience and willpower, will bring an abundant reward.

Only by lying in a perfectly relaxed position as the one described can the husband hope to hold back his orgasm long enough to permit satisfaction for his wife:

Position. After the pre-liminary love-play, the partners should occupy the following position which permits perfect freedom, of movement as well as complete absence of muscular effert, and avoid stimulation of clitoris. The wife first lies on her back with her knees raised so that they touch her breasts. The husband lies on his right side to the left of her, turned towards her in such a way that his left leg lies above of his right leg. In this position he puts both of his legs under both of her thighs while his wife lets her legs fall over his left hip. In so doing he has to move the upper part of his body away from her body until he lies in right angles to her. She is still on her back lengthwise of the bed while he is still lying on his right side, but crosswise of the bed. Most couples prefer that the man places his left leg between her thighs, so forcing her right leg down on his right leg,  while his right leg remains under the buttocks of his wife. Simplyfied version: The husband lies at the left side of his wife, turns to her and places his left leg between her legs so their sex organs are in closest contact.

At this point every kiss and caresses on other parts of the body should cease, in order that all the awakening bio-electrical streams may flow undisturbed towards the sex organs. In this position it does not matter if the penis is in erection or not, the important thing is that its tip should touch the mucosa of the inner lips at the vagina's entrance. After half a hour, when the full exchange of the radiation between the two individuals is established, the penis usually becomes erected and can enter the vagina. Until the man has learned to hold back his ejaculation the position outlined above should usually be maintained at least half an hour, outside the vagina. Complete sex union, in which the tip of the penis penetrates the vagina so deeply that it touches the entrance of the uturus, as it should do in perfect intercourse, then follows. This lasts usually half an hour, though this time can be lengthened to hours if the couple are motionless.

They should train themselves to be completely aware of the sensations of their sex organs and also of the flow of electricity they receive from their partner. They should not permit their thoughts to wander to other subjects and interrupt the flow to the sex organs. Every cell of the body should be relaxed. Every tension serves to block radiation. The more relaxed the cells are, the more easily can they discharge radiations.

As a rule, a well performed sex act, one in which full sex union lasts half an hour, should not be repeated more than once in five days. When sex union lasts for an hour, repetition in a week's time is indicated, when it lasts for two hours the interval should be two weeks. The batteries of the body needs to be recharged.

Too frequent intercourse forces cells in the testicles to consentrate more on the production of sperm cells than hormones. An organism without hormones has no animation or energy. In the end it leads to exhaustion, frustration and disgust with the sex act which includes resentment against the person who has aroused his desire. This is a typical picture of the end of many a passionate love affairs.

How can women attain relaxation when the natural method of natural bodily contact is denied them? Some can find outlets in their activities.To give them female hormones, as is commonly done, can may only increase the tension. The most successfull means combines a warm bath with a vaginal douche used 15 minutes while consentrating on the outflow of radiation from her body, taken every other night before retiring, after orgasm or not. Water is a conductor of energy. The woman should go straight to bed afterwards.

Findings of Wilhelm Reich:
Feelings of pleasure on any skin area are accompanied by an increase in bio-electrical chargein that area. Feelings of displeasure are accompanied (anxiety, fear, irritation) by a decrease of electrical charge. Pleasure draws the charge to the outside of the body, displeasure draws the bio-electricity back to the interior of the organism.

It seems that the bio-electrical charge aroused in the prelude of the to intercourse does not flow back into the same organism, but instead it flows between the two partners, each "neutralizes" is some way the bio-electrical charge of the other.

Over-exitement in the sex glands increases the functions of the pituatary and thyroid glands, resulting in extreme psychic irritability. Hyperfunctioning of the thyroid even leads to visual or accoustic hallucinations. Hyperfunctioning of the pituatary glands stimulates an individual to extreme activity and which sometimes leads to uncontrollable pugnacity.

If a couple will follow the essential parts of our requirements only, these are: Prolonged sex contact, (even after orgasm and ejaculation) for at least half an hour, with full consentraton on the sex act and sleep in a double bed, in close bodily contact.

Twice a week let the couple assume a locked pincher position in bed for at least an hour.

According to Dr. K. Davis, who studied the sex desire of 2000 women, maximum desire were always noted within a period of two days before to one week after menstruation.

The best method to insure animation and vitality is a well performed, regular sex life. It stimulates the production of sex hormones and relaxes the bodily tension.

A webside with karezza info here: https://synergyexplorers.org/synergy-explorers/get-started/enlightened-sex-free-audio-course/

Why dating fails

For years we’ve assumed that romantic relationships had to begin with physical attraction in order to expand into the desire for a close emotional bond. Now it’s turning out that relationships can begin with the urge to bond to someone. They may later expand to encompass sexual desire. This type of transition is especially natural for women, but some men have this experience, too.

When I’m really emotionally bonded to someone, I find myself becoming physically attracted to them.—Lisa

Makes me think about dating and how we are suppose to find out if we like each other enough already on the first date. To check if there is "chemistry" meaning physical attraction. No wonder dating doesn't work very well when there is not given time to bond on another level than the physical. If the bond is only on the mental level we assume the person will only be our friend, at most. Because it is not given time enough how we look becomes very important. First impression is everything. What we say on the first date says "everything" about us.

Victorian sex

Overstimulation of the pleasure receptors with orgasm can desensitise the brain to pleasure or create a craving for more, leading to unhealthy cravings and an imbalance in the brain's harmony. 

​The practice, karezza, encourages both men and women to abstain from orgasm during sex, in order to allow both partners to enjoy longer, and more intense, periods of sexual energy. Rather than focusing on physical desires karezza, derived from the Italian carezza which means caress, encourages couples to focus on intimacy involving eye gazing and light touching. 

When we really tune in to these sensations, a bit like electricity running through our body, then our whole body can become orgasmic. This creates a full-body orgasm that can last as long as we chose for it to, instead of the rather brief type of genital orgasm. 

Woman, sex, love and her shadow.

The shadow in woman is her emotionality, which attaches her to an impossible dream of personal love. When the shadow is able to influence her decisions and choices, the selection of a partner will eventuate circumstances in the relationship that bring to the surface hidden emotional fears and self-doubt. Woman’s subconscious impulse is to unite with her essential nature of impersonal love. In her natural state she emanates a power which brings to her a man who represents her formless love within. When in touch with her love, she is one with the earth and the cosmos, whose delight is to provide her with all that is needed for her pleasure and fulfilment in life. This idealised love cannot be realised universally; but only in the individual woman who has suffered enough and refuses to compromise with the demands of sex without love.

To emerge from the shadow and unite with her true nature, a woman must be prepared to make a stand for love. Never again must she entertain an excitable, impatient man who is unable through his actions to demonstrate that he’s worthy of her love. She has to see that the cause of her discontent and heartache has been her willingness in the past to surrender herself to the sexual force of men instead of the power of love in man. A man can only realise his authenticity and power to love through a woman who refuses to compromise with the effects of past sexual dishonesty. And she can only do this when the shadow in her has been enlightened in love and no longer able to drag her down into the depths of despair. Of course, to banish the shadow for good is a momentous undertaking and requires a man to be willing to enter the profundity of woman and be vulnerable to love. Lance Kelly

Intercourse like masturbation

Rudolph von Urban: The local relaxation of the sex organs through orgasm would diminish the body's tension less effectively than the expulsion of the bio-electricity from the whole body. That is the reason why the local irritation produced by masturbation brings depression and still greater tension in the wake of a few seconds of local satisfaction, the friction itself having served to produce a further charge of radiations, thus tensing the body's cells. Reasoning along these lines, it becomes clear that sexual intercourse, inadequately prepared for and of too brief duration, is nothing other than a form of masturbation, since it fails to take into account the necessary delivery of the whole body from its "overcharge."" Sex Perfection and Marital Happiness, page 109, published in 1949.

Hvordan jeg fikk kontakt med det guddommelige

Om du går rundt og tror du er større og viktigere enn Gud og uavhengig av Gud får du selvfølgelig ikke kontakt med Gud og du overdriver din egen betydning. Nettopp fordi du ikke innser hvor verdifull du faktisk er innbiller du deg at du er større enn du er ved å blåse deg opp. Om du vil motta noe fra Gud må du betrakte deg selv som avhengig og liten i forhold til Gud. Du er ingenting. Gud er alt. Når du har blitt ingenting er du ett med Gud som er alt. Jeg fikk et personlig forhold til Gud da jeg ble overbevist om Guds eksistens. Om at den kjærlige Gud Jesus snakket om som så gjerne ville ha tilbake den sauen som var blitt borte fra han, og som visste hvor mange hårstrå det var på alle menneskers hode var reell og brydde seg her og nå. Når jeg ble overbevist fikk jeg svært nær kontakt. Jeg følte at vi var forelsket i hverandre omtrent. Mye sterkere enn forelskelse mellom mennesker. Og jeg så Gud som en åndelig sol som skinte på meg hele tiden og jeg så jeg strålte ut strålene fra denne åndelige sola. Men før jeg fikk et personlig forhold til Gud fikk jeg kontakt med det guddommelige pga menneskelig kjærlighet, da jeg endelig fikk erfare den. Da tenkte jeg at kjærlighet er kjærlighet i forskjellige grader, så når jeg nå har kontakt med kjærligheten kan jeg strekke meg videre til den guddommelige kjærligheten.. Så det gjorde jeg. Den guddommelige kjærligheten kan gjøre sååå mye mer enn den personlige kan.

Gud, en person?

Gud er den uskapte, så Gud kan ikke være en person, men Gud personifiseres lett siden profeter manifesterer Gud mens de har menneskekropp. Gud sier, via Bahaullah, at alle Guds egenskaper er latent i vårt indre, slik at vi mennesker liksom kan personifisere Gud vi også. Det er vel det vi alle har så vanskelig for; å se det guddommelige løsrevet fra skaperverket. Et menneske som f.eks har disiplin og omsorgsevne kaller vi disiplinert og omsorgsfull, men dette mennesket velger bare å ta disse evnene i bruk til en viss grad mer enn andre som ikke blir kalt det samme. Vi har alle tilgang på det samme. Det er opp til enhver hva de velger å uttrykke. Alt er fra samme kilde, Gud. Vi får alle gleden av å kunne gi uttrykk for det guddommelige. Men vi klarer det ikke som hovmodige, stolte, late osv. og derfor advares vi også mot å uttrykke disse manglene. Vi må ikke tillate oss å bli hengende i en tilværelse av uttrykk for mangler, men oppsøke det vi trenger, enten det er motivasjon mot lathet eller gavmildhet mot gjerrighet. Vi må ikke tillate oss å føle oss uverdige når vi alle kan være storartede.

Problemer med stolthet? Om du setter andre før deg selv kan du ikke være oppblåst. Problem solved.

Love and sex

To make love can never be a sin. Love is pure. Having sex is a different matter. 
If you don't act out of love what you do is a sin.

Lolita for a day and kriyas

I'm so thankful for the kriyas! The stronger the kriyas the better, I think. I speak in tounges sometimes and have wondered who I am talking to, who I long for so intensely and deeply, so I asked today who it was while I was in the middle of the kriya-mood and felt a yearning for this someone, and I could see and feel the loving energy from the virgin Mary!

Today I used a lot more words when I spoke in tounges than usual, even though I have had 4 clitoral orgasms this month and two of them recent. I have even sinned and afterwards felt dirty. I lived out my Lolita fantasies, that was. I didn't think it was dirty before after it happened. The day after I thought I had to either try to like the guy who touched me but couldn't have me, or reject him totally, because soon he would like to be desired too. I am amaced that I was able to like him the same day. Just because I wanted to. I thought I should try to not be serious, but just have fun. We had a fantastic day together today. I was attracted to him. Wanted to touch him many times. This day was full of unpredictability. Very exciting.

Solarixx

Søren Kirkegaard quotes

YOU CANNOT GET THE TRUTH BY CAPTURING IT, ONLY BY ITS CAPTURING YOU.

WHAT THE AGE NEEDS IS NOT A GENIUS—IT HAS HAD GENIUSES ENOUGH, BUT A MARTYR, WHO IN ORDER TO TEACH MEN TO OBEY WOULD HIMSELF BE OBEDIENT UNTO DEATH. 

THE GREATEST THING EACH PERSON CAN IS TO GIVE HIMSELF TO GOD UTTERLY AND UNCONDITIONALLY—WEAKNESS, FEARS, AND ALL. FOR GOD LOVE OBEDIENCE MORE THAN GOOD INTENTIONS OR SECOND-BEST OFFERINGS, WHICH ARE ALL TOO OFTEN MADE UNDER THE GUIDE OF WEAKNESS.

THE OPPOSITE OF SIN IS NOT VIRTUE BUT FAITH.

THE PROUD PERSON ALWAYS WANTS TO DO THE RIGHT THING, THE GREAT THING. BUT BECAUSE HE WANTS TO DO IT IN HIS OWN STRENGTH, HE IS FIGHTING NOT WITH MAN, BUT WITH GOD.

GOD CREATES OUT OF NOTHING. WONDERFUL YOU SAY. YES, TO BE SURE, BUT HE DOES WHAT IS STILL MORE WONDERFUL: HE MAKES SAINTS OUT OF SINNERS.

IF I WERE TO WISH FOR ANYTHING, I SHOULD NOT WISH FOR WEALTH AND POWER, BUT FOR THE PASSIONATE SENSE OF THE POTENTIAL, FOR THE EYE WHICH, EVER YOUNG AND ARDENT, SEES THE POSSIBLE. PLEASURE DISAPPOINTS, POSSIBILITY NEVER. AND WHAT WINE IS SO SPARKLING, WHAT SO FRAGRANT, WHAT SO INTOXICATING AS POSSIBILITY!

2 Spinoza quotes

“The more you struggle to live, the less you live. Give up the notion that you must be sure of what you are doing. Instead, surrender to what is real within you, for that alone is sure....you are above everything distressing.” 
― Baruch Spinoza

“Happiness is not the reward of virtue, but is virtue itself; nor do we delight in happiness because we restrain from our lusts; but on the contrary, because we delight in it, therefore we are able to restrain them.” 
― Baruch Spinoza

Depression

If no one cares about what I feel,

think and do,
why should I do any of it?
Depression says.

Love is the life force
I express myself with.
Without it I'm dead.
That death is depression.

Love is for everyone,
but I can shut the door for it
thinking I'm not worthy
just because certain beings
doesn't show it to me.